Surprised by Joy, by C. S. Lewis
Surprised by Joy, by C. S. Lewis, is a partial autobiography.#
The section of his life that is focused upon is his education and the formation of his philosophy and religion at this time. It tells how he went from unenthusiastic Christianity, to Atheism, to Theism, and finally, to Christianity.#
The story is interesting. The things that caught my eye the most were about the intricacies of the British public school system and about his time with his tutor, the Great Knock.#
Some interesting quotes are below.#
On 'fagging' in English public schools:#
You have only to transfer the thing to adult life and you will, apparently, see the full logic of the position. If some neighboring V.I.P. had irresistible authority to call on you for any service he pleased at any hour when you were not in the office--if, when you came home on a summer evening, tried from work and with more work to prepare against the morrow, he could drag you to the links and make you his caddy till the light failed--if at last he dismissed you unthanked with a suitcase full of his clothes to brush and clean and return to him before breakfast, and a hamper full of his foul linen for your wife to wash and mend--and if, under this regime, you were not always perfectly happy and contented; where could the cause lie except in your own vanity? What else, after, could it be? [p. 101-102]
An astute thought about self-consciousness:#
It seemed to me self-evident that one essential property of love, hate, fear, or desire was attention to their object. To cease thinking about or attending to the woman is, so far, to cease loving; to cease thinking about or attending to the dreaded thing is, so far, to cease being afraid. But to attend to your own love or fear is to cease attending to the loved or dreaded object. In other words the enjoyment and the contemplation of our inner activities are incomptabile. You cannot hope and also think about hoping at the same moment; for in hope we look to hope's object and we interrupt this by (so to speak) turning round to look at the hope itself. [p. 211]